Moonlit

A spell was cast
that frightful night
as we felt
this sheer delight

No words can tell
just what I feel
but that moment
was so surreal

Your silhouette
glowed so bright
a brilliant hue
of blue light

Entranced I was
by what I saw
but even more
by who you are

As we gazed
speaking no more
yet so much more
I wished to say

But words cannot tell you
what I feel in my heart
I wish you can see
whats inside of me

The way my heart leaps
When you flash your bright smile
and the fond memories
of our economic trials

You are my friend
My companion for life
The one I wish to spend
every moonlit night

Its When...

Its when we solve a problem
Its when we discuss our dreams
Its when you tell me your projects
and your creative schemes

Its when you listen
to my crazy rants
about history
about the past

Its when we share
what we learn in scripture
deep life lessons
a more complete picture

Its when your knight
pins my king
and my bishop
takes your queen

Its when you flash
that beautiful smile
those wide open eyes
my heart runs a mile

I can't wait to go on more adventures
with someone so special
Someone I admire
and will always desire

I turn to You

Insecurity seizes my heart
I try to shove it away
but jealously says id rather not

Its a war i fight everyday
to not envy those i see
and wish i was more like them

I know i should turn to you
the holy divine King
the one who made me
and loves me infinitely

yet somehow i always look elsewhere
somewhere i never turn to you
please forgive me in my ignorance
i now know what i must do

I must learn to be fulfilled
in your infinite embrace
to know i am your child
that you are my saving grace

I reach out to you Lord
to fulfill all my needs
to give me confidence
and to give me peace

The Way

when you are sure you know

when you believe you are

then are confronted with the truth

about your painful scars

You realize your perspective,

is limited at best,

that any knowledge you have,

is second best.

You try to find the truth,

but it evades you all the time,

you question all you knew,

you fear for the first time.

Then you finally settle,

and realize the truths still there,

but that being human,

means its somewhere out there.

It might seem elusive,

it might seem obscure,

but to pursue truth is to pursue God,

and find his precious love.

God give me peace,

to accept what I can't see,

to know there is more to life,

that what little I see.

God reveal to me,

your infinite wisdom and love,

help me accept my limitations,

by relying on your divine love.

I think I feel this inside,

because you put it there,

you put me on a quest,

to understand all the rest.

If anything I finally know,

there is a higher power,

something that guides me,

through this uncertain future.

Emptiness

When you try to listen
to those around
yet your heart's screams
drowning their sound

When you try to dance
but your feet can't move
they feel no life
no romance

when you try to write
what you feel
yet the pen is dry
no ink to spill

When you try to fight
this pain you feel
but your body betrayed you
and leaves you to reel

When you feel defeated
before you begin
because your flawed
and deeply scarred

When you want to love
but deeply suspect
anyone that pretends
they're into you

Whats their angle?
whats their game?
why pick me?
when i'm so lame

My life slowly fades
the feelings slowly die
why i hold on
i'm not even sure why